Weblog

Sunday, 15 June 2008

Monday, 31 October 2005

  • Go Paul Go-

    Paul in his Journal, not the Apostle Paul, Paul Clouse, close enough though right? He was talking about identity. Reading it I think almost any human around our age could relate in some way shape or form. We all have thought about ourselves, in fact, I daresay that many of us do most all things for ourselves. The ascension of self is truly an amazing feat in our faith.

    My point in bringing this up though in my Xanga was this question "How do we maintain self and yet serve God as we are called to beyond self?"

    I believe that answer is simple and yet, not simple. If our faith is indeed the center of our lives, then our actions will be led hence by that faith. If our actions are led by that faith then we have truly, just as the analogy spoke of become "clay" and he is the potter. You can maintain individual personality and still be molded. Clay does not lose its consistancy when it is molded, it merely changes shape. You are still the same thing, you're still clay and if that is red clay well, you are still red clay. Your individuality is not lost, but your shape and composure are...

    That is a little deeper than first thoughts might react to reading that, but it is a logical conclusion assuming that you are not being molded with multiple clays. The analogy when first presented was in a singular context, not plural, therefore it noted an individualistic principle yet not so as to infringe upon our identities as individuals of free will.

     

    Language?

     

    Have you ever given much thought to language and what it was to begin with? In order to articulate a thought you need words, otherwise you articulate nothingness, mere sensations without labels or names to refer to them. You would be without guidance.

    If such is true, what then does this say for our train of thought? Could then we be thinking entirely different than Christ did, and perhaps by means of language per say have brought forth even greater temptations upon ourselves?

    Had we in times beginning learned a language of the most purest ways and without taint never known sin? If you could not think sin and could not imagine sin, would you not then be ever tempted with sin if there was no sin to be articulated?

    I would have to say yes, language has affected that...yet this also supports something in which humans refer to as the "Holy Spirit" and "evil". There are times when we feel something that is beyond words, such as love (though love is how we understand it) that does not need words to be explained nor can it, but it is felt mutually.

    In this logic I find that Adam and Eve, before the fall of man, may have been in such great understanding that they spoke some form of telepathy. They understood one another and God so well, they were so one together, that there were no use for words...it was a perfect unison in which no such exchanges need be made.

    Though I have heard the opinion that it were body languages, I believe this again refers back to some form of complete unity, as such as telepathy would provide. An interesting concept.

    So then, how different is English from Greek? What was it like to think Greek? Hebrew? Japanese?

    Do we even have similiar beliefs if our thoughts and very way of acting/living is different? If indeed language is the basis for all such thoughts and articulation, where then can we find direction?

    The tower of babel...the Indo-European theory...what IS the truth exactly?

     

    In conclusion, I believe that all of this again supports all the more the reason we are called to have faith. I believe that God was competant enough in his plan for human salvation to deliver forth a Gospel in which his truths would prevail to us in a form which would be adequate for our needs, as he promised us he would not place before us anything which we could not handle.

     

    And that, has been my Halloween moment of thought...

     

    Btw, we watched "Ernest Scared Stupid" and I am doing this post to compensate for the loss of IQ and social skills.

    Happy All Hallow's Eve ^.^

     

Tuesday, 04 October 2005

  • Apparently I had forgotten about my Xanga until a week ago. The classic debate as to whether I should keep a journal plagues my thoughts, it's an interesting concept that I have rarely stuck with. Generally if I were to express myself my opinions are so radical and to many, offending, I try to keep it on the down low and in privacy.

    For Johnson's sake they don't have to worry about me cussing, I don't cuss much if at all. Honestly speaking, they do on occasion come out.

    So, I guess henceforth I may very well begin posting again. We'll have to wait and see how the semester plays out.

    Today was fairly eventful, so much so that I'm far too pressed for time to begin telling of the things that have occured and registered to me as "events". I think I'll use this Xanga to jot down my thoughts and organize myself, much like prayer except through typing. Why not share my thoughts with others? Yes, that sounds like a fine idea in moderation.

    Had a personal meeting with Meridian Baptist Church today. Apparently the relief effort down there is very well underway and we are bringing down enough things that it's costing them 1,500$ in gas alone to get down and back. Quite the expense for transportation alone. 24 of us are heading down, hopefully 8 from Johnson, fully paid for. Need to get an announcement out to start taking donations for supplies on our trip.

    I felt bad about not being able to go on the trip I had originally begun planning alongside Jamin. It's weird how my role in this has been as a seed planter and organizer. The backseat leadership role I've always naturally taken. Good with logistics, organizing, assimilating and staying loyal and truthful to a cause beyond measure. My integrity seems to grow stronger during such occasions, as though my very person comes to be known.

    So much writing to be done for my counseling class. They tell you it doesn't have to be grammatically correct, but I'm afraid if I rush through it without correcting it as I go I'll get in the habit of not worrying about grammar and find myself in a far worse scenario down the road.

    Wedding plans are starting to take off and time is passing by just as it has since I was born, unending and non-existant. Heh, think about that statement.

    My guild on World of Warcraft is corrupting, and unfortunately, is nearly beyond the point to where I feel I can effectively reach them spiritually. They are so self-conceited and being in the guild it is hard to impact them. Perhaps it is time we finally made the move to create a Christian guild for fellowship on the World of Warcraft, an unreached people group of 4 million active players world-wide, from countries like the U.S. to China and Germany. Average player as of today spends about 8 hours a day on Warcraft. If those of us who enjoy and are talented at such things don't reach them, who will? You can't go to church or to the streets to evangelize to these people, they never leave home. My how times have changed since the Apostles.

    Lost souls, so many. I have so many sins, but they're not my burden to bear. A non-existant but unavoidable time consumes my every thought wondering "Will what I do and will I get up to do what I can, and is what I can and what I am truly enough, or even righteous?"

    Aubrey is beautiful, she is my little shining star in all of this ^.^. That's all for now.

Wednesday, 13 April 2005

  • So much going on, I'm going crazy. o.o I need to sit down and start doing some historical readings/research. Should I...

    Read and continue my studies on the Celts of Gaul, or should I read something more random and casual like "Herodotus:The Histories" or "Periods in Highland History"?

    Played some World of Warcraft after setting up Aubrey and I's marital counseling appointment. It'll be nice to actually do something towards our marriage and have it out of the way and under our belts. The more experience and thought put into all of this the better. I need to call my insurance later and get some estimates on health plans, car insurance, etc.

Tuesday, 12 April 2005

  • It's a rainy day, and I'm in a complaining mood. I can't thank Aubrey enough though for being a supportive figure, she keeps the optimistic side of my worst criticisms. This summer...bah.

    Either I'm going to be stuck in Greene County or stuck in a trailor, an old trailor, over summer. I can't stand old buildings, let alone trailors. Call me picky, but not only do I not sleep well in them I have never felt at home in one of them. Yeah, I'll live, and yeah...I know we're not meant to have nice things all the time, but it still sucks.

    If I go to Greene County? Greene County Indiana is ah, boring. The people groups there are reached and stubborn, super hard to witness...sometimes it takes a week or two of solid work in the field to even allow for a question to be asked or answered about Christ. It's not one of those areas that you can just go to for a summer and actually make some sort of a notable impact. The countryside is alright, lots of fish and turtles (that's a plus btw) but ah...nah.

    But, there is one option left. Hanging Rock Christian Assembly...a camp in Northern IN that may still hire counselors for the summer. If I get it, which I hope I do, I'm praying that Aubrey and I will both get a job there and we'll be able to work there for the summer. Hoping, praying that such is the case. We'll see though...

    Nothing seems to be going my way though right now, go figure. I'm waiting for something else to hit me.

    I'm in an alright mood, I want to snuggle Aubrey ;-;. She's awesome, when I complain like this I feel like I'm doing her an injustice because she's always so cheerful, even about the krappy trailor x.x. Love you babe.

Top Tags - Weblog

[no tags]

SirAlamaris

  • Visit SirAlamaris's Xanga Site
    • Member Since: 4/8/2005

Weblog Archives

Don't worry - your calendar is here… to see it in action just click "Save" above and refresh the page.

About Me

[no info]

Pulse

SirAlamaris has no pulse!...

Photostrip

[no photos]

Recommended

[no recommendations]